We all hold ourselves to different standards, this is accountability.
So why do some of us hold ourselves to unrealistic standards? We set these standards that are just unattainable and then follow up by punishing ourselves for not meeting the cut.
So what does this say about us?
Now let's look in a mirror. (Since this is my writing we'll look into my mirror)
Take a good look.
Past the blemish under the left eye. The scar on the upper lip.
Look into the eyes, they are after all the window to the soul.
What do you see?
Fear. Confidence. Doubt. Ambition. Weariness. Passion. Hope. Loathing. Conviction.
These things are only what run along the surface. So let's take the dive into the ocean of ourselves. Go head first into the water. Feel the warmth of your person along your skin. The memory where you dug your heels into the dirt, the first heartbreak, even the sadness of a most tragic loss. These are the things that make you who you are.
Don't stop there. Go deep down to the darkness.
The void where the cold penetrates to the bone. Where are self-punishment finds its way into every aspect of us.
So why do we punish ourselves? This is the million dollar question for today. The simple answer, we think we deserve it.
Woof. That's an uncomfortable truth isn't it.
So why do I deserve it?
Is it because I didn't stand up for myself after years and years of darkness? Is it because I'm not proud of things of I've done? Is it because I think I can be a better person? Is it perhaps I can't be? Am I lost? Am I good man?
Yes.
No.
Maybe.
Can it be a little of everything? The answer to that is beyond my meager comprehension. Those are the types of questions that will make the wheels pop off the school bus while on a highway.
This is a reality for many people, this uncomfortable truth.
So forge a new truth. A new standard. The iron of your reality can be reforged. (Holy shit this just turned into a self help post.... A thousand apologies good folks)
We set ourselves up for failure and the bad juju that follows. So why not turn the focus on the actions of the day.
Instead of saying I wasn't a good man today, set out with the goal of being a better man than the day before. Stand up for yourself today when you didn't yesterday. Be a little prouder of your actions. Most of all stopping taking your frustration out on yourself.
I'm not saying don't hold yourself accountable, just be reasonable.
I am little concerned with beauty or perfection. I don't care for the great centuries. All I care about is life, struggle, intensity.
-Emile Zola
Don't punish yourself. In the words of my sister; "Just learn to love yourself again." You are after all the protagonist in the story of your life, and every protagonist needs a little struggle. Otherwise nobody would read that shit.....
- A Gentleman Of The Road
So why do some of us hold ourselves to unrealistic standards? We set these standards that are just unattainable and then follow up by punishing ourselves for not meeting the cut.
So what does this say about us?
Now let's look in a mirror. (Since this is my writing we'll look into my mirror)
Take a good look.
Past the blemish under the left eye. The scar on the upper lip.
Look into the eyes, they are after all the window to the soul.
What do you see?
Fear. Confidence. Doubt. Ambition. Weariness. Passion. Hope. Loathing. Conviction.
These things are only what run along the surface. So let's take the dive into the ocean of ourselves. Go head first into the water. Feel the warmth of your person along your skin. The memory where you dug your heels into the dirt, the first heartbreak, even the sadness of a most tragic loss. These are the things that make you who you are.
Don't stop there. Go deep down to the darkness.
The void where the cold penetrates to the bone. Where are self-punishment finds its way into every aspect of us.
So why do we punish ourselves? This is the million dollar question for today. The simple answer, we think we deserve it.
Woof. That's an uncomfortable truth isn't it.
So why do I deserve it?
Is it because I didn't stand up for myself after years and years of darkness? Is it because I'm not proud of things of I've done? Is it because I think I can be a better person? Is it perhaps I can't be? Am I lost? Am I good man?
Yes.
No.
Maybe.
Can it be a little of everything? The answer to that is beyond my meager comprehension. Those are the types of questions that will make the wheels pop off the school bus while on a highway.
This is a reality for many people, this uncomfortable truth.
So forge a new truth. A new standard. The iron of your reality can be reforged. (Holy shit this just turned into a self help post.... A thousand apologies good folks)
We set ourselves up for failure and the bad juju that follows. So why not turn the focus on the actions of the day.
Instead of saying I wasn't a good man today, set out with the goal of being a better man than the day before. Stand up for yourself today when you didn't yesterday. Be a little prouder of your actions. Most of all stopping taking your frustration out on yourself.
I'm not saying don't hold yourself accountable, just be reasonable.
I am little concerned with beauty or perfection. I don't care for the great centuries. All I care about is life, struggle, intensity.
-Emile Zola
Don't punish yourself. In the words of my sister; "Just learn to love yourself again." You are after all the protagonist in the story of your life, and every protagonist needs a little struggle. Otherwise nobody would read that shit.....
- A Gentleman Of The Road